tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4064475452119341642024-02-18T18:23:58.262-08:00Freckles Fun Art!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.comBlogger209125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-71823615204323855902014-01-02T23:19:00.000-08:002014-01-02T23:20:35.912-08:00Something Old, Something NewHappy New Year!<br />
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I've been absent from this blog for a while. I didn't feel compelled to write until now. I've been going through some big changes in my life. If you recall the last thing I actively worked on was my <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/the-failure-challenge-day-1.html" target="_blank">Failure Challenge</a>. I stopped short of posting 30 posts of things I was actively trying to fail at artistically. However I wouldn't call that a failure in and of itself. When I started the Challenge I needed it. I needed to be held accountable so that I could push through my major emotional boundaries. Fear led the way. But I kept going, timidly painting a <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/the-lemon-law.html" target="_blank">lemon</a> or a pair of <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/somewhere-along-way.html" target="_blank">sunglasses</a>. It may be hard to imagine if you are not an anxious artist but the very act of pushing myself into the unknown caused me to be in a state so nervous I felt physically repulsed. I had to focus on putting one foot in front of the other as they led me towards a thing I knew I had not drawn before and would not know how. I think in the end I figured out it wasn't so much the fear of failure that I was trying to beat but the fear of not feeling completely confident in my actions. There is a certain safety net I put myself in by only pursuing the things I knew the steps to take to achieve it. When forced into new situations (drawing a <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/05/loving-it.html" target="_blank">boat</a>!) I had no idea what step 1 was and all of a sudden my safety net became my cage.<br />
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It sounds slightly ridiculous to be so emotionally and physically disturbed by something that when said aloud sounds so simple. But these were and are my feelings and therefore are not ridiculous. They are true facts.<br />
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I felt very lost for a long time this year. In a way I had never felt before. This whole failure challenge really ended up testing me to my core and I really hadn't expected that. It turns out that the things I fear about art are the same things I fear about life. That is a hard one to face. <br />
I spent the later part of 2013 trudging through my feelings, sorting them and facing them. I grew tremendously but it was incredibly painful. I am still growing and sometimes I wish it was easier but I know that if it was then there would be no point.<br />
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This small silly "30 post Failure Challenge" has irrevocably set me on a new path in life. It has revealed certain truths to me that have changed the trajectory of where I thought I wanted my life to go. Looking back I feel I was wandering, grabbing hold of anything that reached out. This year I am marching down a path I have carved for myself.<br />
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So as to what this means for the blog? When I started this blog it was because I had been laid off for the first time ever. I was going crazy in my apartment by myself. Work really defined me at that point and with no work there was no me. I started the blog so I would have a reason to leave my room every day. To go and draw. When people started following this blog I wanted to use it to help inspire people because I knew how lonely it felt to be uninspired. And then I did it out of habit and it become more for the people who were reading it than for me. I became bored with it and bored with myself. During another extended lay off season (yay animation industry!) I decided to tackle my knowledge gap with colour and thats really why I started the failure challenge. So here we are. After some major reflection I've decided to keep this blog as a place primarily for my thoughts as a person trying to understand what it means to be an artist. I will post art from time to time but if you would really like to see my art and not my thoughts I encourage you to follow my <a href="http://www.frecklesfun.tumblr.com/" target="_blank">tumblr</a>. <br />
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2014 will be a very different year for me. I'd love for you to follow along whether by my blog or my tumblr.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-12052441767953766582013-07-16T12:41:00.003-07:002013-07-16T12:44:48.068-07:00Get Lost<i>**In case you haven't noticed my new icon to the right I have started a <a href="http://frecklesfun.tumblr.com/" target="_blank">tumblr</a>. Most of the art on there is different from what I post here so check it OUT! It is also a place for me to post pics and whatever the heck else I feel like.**</i><br />
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With this <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/search/label/The%20Failure%20Challenge" target="_blank">failure challenge</a> I have been experimenting a lot and working through a lot of my own problems. I've been breaking out of the cage of my mind and doing new things. This has been fantastic. Sometimes when I try something new I can't wait for it to be over and I hate it. That in itself is some form of progress! Yet more often than not I find that the hours fly by and any noise of the outside world receded to an imperceptible buzz. All of my worries and emotions quiet down as if they know something important is happening and they must now wait their turn to be heard. I am lost to the outside world but during those moments I have found myself completely and I know who I am.<br />
When hunger or phone shakes me out of this I am often startled by how much time has passed. I take note. When I Get Lost....I know I have found something important to me. Something worth doing, something worth learning and pursuing <br />
When I sketch at a cafe, I am lost. When I sculpt, I am lost. When I animate, I am lost. These things I knew. What I did not know is that I would so loose myself in painting, and designing. In finding those moments that I can shake the world loose and have only myself to dominate my awareness, I have stumbled onto new paths I never thought I'd cross. <br />
So I think the thing I have taken away from all this is the only way to find yourself is to <i><b>Get Lost</b></i>.<br />
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<a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/search/label/The%20Failure%20Challenge" target="_blank">FAILURE CHALLENGE</a> #16<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-87801656250032276572013-07-02T11:43:00.001-07:002013-07-02T11:58:15.746-07:00CopiesI've been doing 20min copies of some of <a href="http://nathanfowkes.blogspot.ca/" target="_blank">Nathan Fowkes</a> work. I'll do it either before I got cafe sketching or after and it's become a really nice part of my day. I just set a 20min timer and forget the world exists as I paint.<br />
That man knows his colour. I've already learned so much since I started doing this. Again this is a thing I have thought about doing for years. It is something <i>I've been told to do</i> for years. Why I haven't done it until now... I can't say exactly but fear is a part of why. I know I sound like a broken record by now but it just goes to show how much of a part of my everyday life fear played a part in. Life is too short to be afraid everyday, even if it's only the little of stuff.<br />
I've been doing these copies for about two weeks now (these aren't all of them) and I feel like I'm really starting to understand some of these colour concepts. More than learning something new I find that doing these copies has reinforced knowledge I knew on an intellectual level and made me understand it more on an emotional/personal level. It's just the difference between memorizing facts as opposed to discovering knowledge organically and letting it become a part of you. <br />
I said it once and I'll say it again. This failure challenge is one of the best things I've ever done for myself.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-10467332816476056712013-06-14T12:01:00.001-07:002013-06-14T12:01:50.945-07:00The Value of ValuesI've been really trying to get a handle on colour for a really long time. Whenever I see an amazing composition of colour by another artist (<a href="http://nathanfowkes-sketch.blogspot.ca/" target="_blank">Nathan Fowkes</a>!!) I get super excited. And I really want to be able to capture colour and mood in an exciting way. So I've been putting a lot of time into understanding colour. I have this <a href="http://www.amazon.ca/Color-Light-Guide-Realist-Painter/dp/0740797719" target="_blank">amazing book</a> that really breaks things down well about colour. One of the driving principles is how we measure colour. One of the way we measure it is in values and although I had heard that many times before I didn't really understand it until now. So I went and go myself some greytones markers and started putting down the values in drawings from observations. The result was a huge learning experience for me because it helped me understand some of the mistakes I have been making. I HIGHLY recommend that book and also do yourself a favour and just stare at Nathan Fowkes art for a while. It's so freaking beautiful! Another bonus about marker? YOU CAN GOUACHE ALL OVER IT!<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-33262618923985886472013-05-21T15:41:00.001-07:002013-05-21T15:42:07.872-07:00FeeeeeeeelingsMaybe it's something in the air, maybe it's because my 8tracks playlist just started playing Backstreet Boys or maybe it's because I'm about to move into a sweeeeeeeeeet new apartment. Either way this is how I've been feeling lately. Also me and photoshop have really been getting along lately. I took some time, put some work into that relationship and we haven't fought in WEEKS. A new record. <br />
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I'm counting this as a failure challenge even though I didn't set out to do this as part of it. I just sat down and wanted to experiment and this is what happened. It's worth noting though that before I started the failure challenge I would have been too afraid/anxious to just freely experiment like this. Progress people, PROGRESS!</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-48406427085152830492013-05-16T18:48:00.000-07:002013-05-16T18:48:43.102-07:00Marked<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
Things are quite busy over here. But most importantly: Look! Marker! <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2012/09/growing-pains.html" target="_blank">I tried sketching with marker</a> a while ago and wasn't crazy about the result. I kind of gave up on them at that point. I think mostly it was because I still didn't have a good grasp on colour. Since I've been working a lot more with colour and studying it more consciously I thought I'd give markers another shot and I'm really enjoying them this time around! I started a new sketchbook about a week ago and every page so far has marker on them. This is a really great way for me to get down colour ideas on the spot. It's worth noting that I felt my usual amount of fear/anxiety about trying something I knew I'd failed at before but the difference is that I ignored that feeling really easily and was able to just dive in without worrying too much about whether or not things would look good or not. Hurrah for the magic of the Failure Challenge!!!</div>
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-51075759641205104982013-05-01T21:21:00.000-07:002013-05-01T21:21:57.977-07:00Loving ItEver since I took a chance and used <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/04/shifts.html" target="_blank">oil pastels at the last Dr. Sketchy</a> event I've really fallen in love with them. They are super portable and good for getting colour down fast. I have been wanting to paint landscapes for years now and have struggled with the portability of paint. So here is a much simpler solution that has allowed me to make colour observations and sketch in the great outdoors! This is something that (again) I've been wanting to do for <i>years</i> at this point but was too afraid to do it. Well look at me go!<br />
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This <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/the-failure-challenge-day-1.html" target="_blank">failure challenge</a> was really a catalyst for change that started with my art but then spread into other areas of life. Something that I read recently that really stuck with me is <b>"routine kills creativity"</b>. Anyone who has been reading my blog for a while may have picked up on the fact that I LOVE ROUTINES. I go to the same coffee shop every day at the same time. I sit in the same seat and order the same thing. I draw the same thing with the same pen. Every day. If one of these things changes slightly, I get instant anxiety. <br />
Well since pushing myself to explore new things I've realized just how much my routine was limiting me. It basically guaranteed that I would experience the same thing day after day and it really left no room for surprises. So I took a little break. And when I started up again I brought pens <i>and</i> pencils with me. I went to a different place to draw. I drew people and anything else I saw. Then I stopped looking around and drew what was in my mind. The first few days were really scary but I knew that what was even scarier was the thought of repeating my routine for even one more day. The world is always moving and changing and sometimes you have to grow just to stay still. <br />
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My anxiety went away with my routine. I don't have an internal freak out if things don't go as I expect. I'm able to actually take in what's different and enjoy it. I have so much changing and going on right now with my art and I can't wait to share it.<br />
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Last night I was experimenting with different textures for another part of the set when I had a brainstorm. I got a small tupperwear container and filled it with 70% table salt 10% water and 20% different shades of blue beads. <br />
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Somehow the sum of these parts created a very animatable substance. And because it was made out of very small particles it was easy to animate in some of the subtleties of water. I did a quick test animation last night and was very pleased with the initial results. I feel that the next round of tests will be even more successful This is a HUGE step forward since the water solution was really holding me back.<br />
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I'm really excited to test some more with this. Last night I just threw in whatever beads I had but I feel like some of them were just too big. Next time around I'm going to keep it smaller and work with different tones a bit more.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-76818463286388043522013-03-19T16:05:00.000-07:002013-03-19T16:06:35.871-07:00I Done Did ItWell this was a big one. I finally redesigned the old blog! I had really been holding on to that last design for far too long and I'm very happy to have accomplished this change. This new look is not only for the blog though, I've expanded it to my <a href="https://vimeo.com/61758119" target="_blank">demo reel</a> and I'm having new business cards printed. I've been playing around with the idea of a monogram for years. The past few weeks have been kind of amazing ever since I started my <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/the-failure-challenge-day-1.html" target="_blank">Failure Challenge</a>. I have finally gotten around to pursuing some interests that I had been putting off due to some sort of manifestation of a fear of failing. Doing this challenge has really allowed me to face that and I feel like I'm entering into a new creative era of my life. I'm really excited to see what comes next.<br />
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I went for a walk the other day and came across some awesome busking. The musicians switched every 20 min and they all sang different genres. It was amazing how the way they dressed and presented themselves was so cohesive with their genre. I want to work with the blues guy and flesh out that illustration so I've started with some gouache studies. Well, thats a lie. I started in Photoshop but felt so disconnected the I just switched to gouache. <br />
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So we went to <a href="http://www.drsketchyvancouver.com/" target="_blank">Dr. Sketchy's</a> last night and I <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/the-failure-challenge-day-1.html" target="_blank">failure challenged</a> myself not to use any lines. Instead I brought my gouache and took the opportunity to paint from life. At first, <b>I was scared</b>. But the thought that I already knew how things would look if I just used a pen was so overwhelmingly boring to me that I couldn't bare not to do something different. At first it was definitely a struggle but the constantly changing poses let me start over and learn from my mistakes every few minutes. I learned a lot about the optimal texture of gouache for this kind of work and also found a workflow that really worked for me. I found a thin underpainting to block out the form and then rendering it lengthwise really worked for me. Ultimately I learned a lot in those three hours and I'm so glad I stared fear in the face and shrugged.</div>
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-38203382550666829902013-02-07T13:42:00.001-08:002013-02-07T13:42:32.702-08:00Breaking PointI'm sick! And I have a houseguest for the week! And there is a long weekend here! The perfect storm to getting no work done. So I am taking a blogging break for a week. I will see you all next week, have a great one :)Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-34763792011338873202013-02-04T16:20:00.002-08:002013-02-04T16:21:13.256-08:00From LifeI went life drawing last night. I realized I hadn't been life drawing since I was in New York. So that would be... like almost a year and a half! ICK. I love life drawing and it was always in the back on my mind to go. I'm so happy I finally went!! I had a great time and we had a fantastic model. We went to <a href="http://www.drsketchyvancouver.com/" target="_blank">Dr. Sketchy</a> which if you are not familiar with uses burlesque performers for models. This makes for interesting poses and a fun atmosphere. I haven't used conte in YEARS. The last time I did life drawing I just used my sketchbook and pen. I have really missed drawing with my entire arm. Those first few gesture looked <b>rough. </b>However I persevered and finally got back into the groove. In the second half I switched to a blue col erase to see if I could pick up more detail for the longer poses. Success! It has inspired me to perhaps take a pen break from cafe sketching and try to work in some tonal values by using a pencil. I know the blue col erase didn't photograph well (obviously lol) but in person I really like the way it came out. I'm excited to see what cafe sketching with a pencil will bring me.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-89974575627102795932013-02-01T11:44:00.003-08:002013-02-01T11:47:57.105-08:00Filtered I was feeling pretty disconnected and blah about my digital piece. I realized it's because I didn't really care about it. So I decided to <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/dont-forget-about-love.html" target="_blank">take my own advice</a> and find something to love about it. I decided to redraw it but instead of just drawing what I saw in the photograph I allowed it to filter through my mind and my own perspective. This is what happened and now I'm actually excited every time I sit down and work on it. I'm not rushing through it. I'm exploring and playing and having fun.<br />
<a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/the-failure-challenge-day-1.html" target="_blank">This challenge</a> has really helped unblock me mentally and creatively and I'm now working on other ideas. Ideas that were totally stalled as I was paralyzed by the potential failure they might be. YAY! This is working for me.<br />
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Anyone want to join in? What are you afraid of doing because you might fail?Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-26896052474968524562013-01-30T15:27:00.002-08:002013-01-30T15:27:25.791-08:00For You.I actually think that kindness is one of the most powerful things in the world. Kindness to ourselves and kindness to each other. When I am feeling down about myself or my work sometimes I feel like it would be weak to be kind to myself. Like I would be encouraging or endorsing the things about myself I wanted to change. Truthfully though I was just kicking myself when I was already down. When I couldn't find the strength to be kind to myself I was and am lucky enough to have people in my life who could see past my self loathing to see just me, a person who was hurting. When I couldn't bear to be kind to myself my family and friends were. It was their kindness that lifted me up. If I had surrounded myself with people who believed like I did that the only way to change or help myself was to be cruel and point out my flaws (as if I didn't already know what they were!) I don't think I could have survived it. I count my blessings every day that through the darker periods in my life when I couldn't show myself love or acceptance I had people in my life that gave me a soft place to fall and a refuge from my own internal self flagellation. Now, years removed from those times I find it easier to be kind to myself in the hard times. I remember a few parts of last year when I felt particularly low that I couldn't find one good thing to say about myself. It was then when I was internally searching for something, anything that would keep me moving forward I heard my sisters voices telling me that they were proud of me and that they believed in me no matter what. I listened to those voices and replayed them over and over in my head until I believed it and I could say it to myself. Of course I could have chosen to listen to the other voices. The ones who doubted my choices and discouraged me from taking the risks with negativity and fear. If I chose to recall those voices in my fragile state I think I would have just fallen to pieces.<br />
Not everyone is going to believe in you. But you owe it to yourself to find someone who does. And you owe it to yourself to believe in the way they believe in you until you can believe in yourself.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-25291180405381454772013-01-28T12:59:00.002-08:002013-01-28T12:59:53.231-08:00Self Aversion and Lemon Party I read something recently on the subject of how we often try to avoid ourselves. Desperately seeking TV or something to read or mindless tasks to perform, anything to allow us not to have to be alone with ourself. I know that I have done this more frequently lately than not. Knowing that I will have to go on a 15 minute walk to Whole Foods prompts me to nervously check that I have my ipod in my pocket so I can listen to music. If I should already begin walking and realize that I had left my ipod at home I will silently curse and immediately pull out my phone to check.....something, anything. Anything so that I don't have to be left alone with myself. It is such a knee jerk reaction at this point that it takes deliberate and conscious thought to actually reconnect. <br />
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These were all done on the same day. I was determined not to let this lemon kick my ass completely!</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-8806005535951064222013-01-25T18:28:00.000-08:002013-01-25T18:28:04.856-08:00A Work In ProgressWell the titles says it all! I'm working on a small digital piece for fun. It's weird doing something you don't usually do and having the feeling that you have no idea who you are.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-37806737436589098902013-01-23T12:00:00.000-08:002013-01-23T12:00:01.684-08:00The Lemon LawToday I painted the same lemon. 4 times. In varying degrees of success. The first two I painted made my heart hurt. They punched my ego in the face and pulled down its pants. I know that these are feelings I have to feel. They are OH SO uncomfortable. But this is the whole point of everything. Knowing that I have a second sketchbook that I have started that is being filled with anything but cafe sketches lets me see through the haze of discomfort and steadies my heart. I'm on the right path. It hurts, but I'm walking it.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-5558179075137302422013-01-18T13:14:00.000-08:002013-01-18T13:14:01.854-08:00Somewhere Along The WayWhen I started this blog I had been working for a few years as a stop motion animator and found myself to be laid off indefinitely During those few years working I had completely neglected to draw. When I was growing up and all throughout high school and college I did nothing BUT draw. But what can I say? I was swept off my feet by stop motion and was completely engrossed in it. Still the nagging feeling that I was missing something stayed with me and when my job disappeared the feeling was all I had left.<div>
It was amazing how....well how BAD my drawings were when I finally picked up a pencil again. Comparing it to my high school and college art it seemed I had actually regressed. <b>This was a gut wrenchingly hard fact to face.</b> However I knew that the joy I used to feel from drawing was something worth fighting for. I learned to turn off the part of my brain that cried in despair every time I drew something that did not look the way I thought it should. It was only by sheer force of will that I was able to get through that part and rebuild the connection with my mind and my hand so that when I envisioned the way I wanted to draw something it actually came out that way. This of course took YEARS and is still something I'm working on. </div>
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Now that I've decided to take the leap and move onto different subject matter I find myself back at square one. My brain and ego are taking a beating. I think in the back of my mind I knew this would be the case but I was hoping it magically wouldn't. At least this time around I have total proof in the fact that I can overcome this particularly discouraging part of the journey. Although this time I am going through it wiser and more optimistic. I can feel the slow and painful rebuilding of communication with my mind and my hand. It is a brick by brick operation with no technological shortcuts. I must do the dirty work. And the fact that I have even started this journey (finally) makes me feel amazing and powerful.</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-70960583439561011872013-01-16T12:00:00.000-08:002013-01-16T12:00:01.468-08:00Don't Forget About The LoveLately I've been in a real rut with my cafe sketching. The last week or so nothing seems to come out right. I see people, I draw them, but then I don't like what comes out on the page. Something is missing and I know I've gone through periods like this before but they don't get easier. I always continue drawing day after day until some mysterious switch gets flicked back on and I enjoy it again. Today while trudging through an episode of "i don't feel like drawing" mornings I felt especially desperate. It's not just that everything I drew seemed ugly, it also seemed foreign. Like someone else had drawn the faces on my page. Nothing about them had any part of me in them. Then I kind of realized that that was it. That was my problem. I had become disconnected with the people I was drawing and the feelings it could bring out in me. When I am "in the zone" I am unusually completely smitten and in love with the people I am drawing. The way there hair falls, the degree of which there nose turns up, the lopsided way they smile or talk. So I decided to start loving them again. I looked up at a person and allowed myself to be completely charmed by them. Their double chin that formed when they smiled, how short their hair was that it curled right under their ears. When I allowed myself to delight in this I found myself in love again and once again I was reflected in my drawings. It was actually amazing the immediate difference I saw. I was no longer rushing through drawing, nor was I over thinking things in my head. I took my time, lingering over the drawing and adding little touches here and there. Because I wanted to, because that's what I love to do.<br />
The thing I really took away from this was just.... you have to love what you are doing. No matter what it is. You have to feel love and feel connected so that your natural inclinations are to spend time, connect and love the details of what you are doing. Whether you are an artist or anything else. If you love what you do you will <i>love the things you do.</i><br />
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<a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2013/01/the-failure-challenge-day-1.html" target="_blank">Failure Challenge</a> POST 2<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00630940298967577041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-406447545211934164.post-80557561124239206312013-01-14T15:00:00.000-08:002013-03-19T15:56:21.506-07:00The Failure Challenge - DAY 1Lately I feel like I've hit a wall with my sketching. I find myself all up in my head with all kinds of negative voices while I draw. I don't like this. I think a lot of it has to do with not doing improv anymore. When I was doing improv regualrly it gave me the opportunity to really publicly fail but then have to get back up and try again. It also always encouraged me to make mistakes and then invest in those mistakes to turn them into gold. <b>I miss improv. </b>With the craziness of my travel/work schedule over the past year it has been impossible to get back into it. The closest I got was when I moved to SF and I thought I would be there for a while. I emailed the local improv school and was all set to start classes there. I was REALLY excited. And then we all know <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/search/label/San%20Francisco" target="_blank">what happened next</a>.<br />
I know I will find my way back to improv... it's just a matter of when. I actually found a pretty great school here in Vancouver but they ask for you to commit to a certain number of months and at this point I really can't commit since I may be going back down to California at some point. And I wouldn't want to leave anyone hanging if I had to bail on an improv group.<br />
So it's time to take trying and failing and succeeding back into my own hands. I will begin using this blog more for its intended purpose. When I started it back in 2010 it was so I could get back to drawing. I chose cafe sketching and I posted the results publicly. <a href="http://frecklesfun.blogspot.ca/2010/11/continued.html" target="_blank">No matter how awful they were at times.</a> Because the point of this blog was not to post beautiful drawings. It was to post, to share, and to not be afraid of showing people that sometimes <i>I make bad art.</i> I knew that if I could accept the fact that I failed sometimes then I could take the fear and the power away from failure. Whether this meant someone would come across my blog and NEVER return because they were so highly unimpressed with its contents was and is not for me to worry about. The main focus on my mind is just; am I trying? Am I making?<b> </b>And posting on this blog is a way to say YES. I know that as long as I keep producing art, good or bad it is always a step forward. A step forward in the education of myself and who I am as an artist and a person. To figure that out is my main objective in life. I'm truly not trying to impress anyone. I'm just making this a space, my own space, where I can go to and accept myself for the good and the bad. I think everyone needs that safe space in order to grow. <br />
So with that being said here is my challenge to myself. For the next 30 posts starting from now I will not be posting any cafe sketches (although I will still be cafe sketching every day). I may sketch and post ANYTHING else, including household objects, landscapes, or just things from my imagination. I need to get comfortable with failing again and this is the best way I know how. If anyone wants to join me on this challenge of 30 days of failure I would love it. Thats not to say you should expect to fail everyday. It's more in the spirit of - <b>Do something everyday that normally you would not do/be afraid to do because you think you might fail or not be good at it.</b><br />
But that's just the first part of the challenge. The second is to look at your failure head on. Look at it and accept that this is a part of you right now. It may not always be this way but right now it is and <b>that is OK.</b> If you're feeling extra adventurous tell someone about how you failed! Have a laugh about it or have a serious talk about how it made you feel. Do whatever you want with it because it is your failure. Let's do this.<br />
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