Well look what happened. Finally some colour to brighten up my sketchbook. HAPPINESS. I can feel the wheels beginning to turn again. I am slowly (so slowly) but surely returning to the mental state of productiveness. Today I read another chapter in The Artists Way and there was a sentence in there that came to the effect of "self respect comes from the doing, not from the done". Something I totally needed to hear today. It's a simple way of me being able to understand that even though I am so proud of all the things I have accomplished, it is not enough to sustain my happiness as an artist. The only thing that make me really feel happy is doing. So that is why I feel so much peace when I draw in the morning. That is why I feel like I have accomplished the best day of my life if I go into my studio and test out a method that ultimately won't even work for my purposes. Cause I'm doing. That's really the thing that gets me out of bed and instead of saying to myself "you have not done enough" I say "what can I create today?"